Sunday, 30 May 2010
The Writer's Block
If you're interested in the Writer's Block, the book I mentioned in my previous blog, you can find it here. It's a really great book, and if you're a writer, I strongly suggest you buy it. It's genius.
Bieber Is My Best Friend.
... or so she thinks.
So Jess and I met up at 10:10am in the rain, caught the bus, and all that crap. Last week, I saw a hoodie in Pulp that I really wanted ("I ♥ Nerds"), so I looked at the pricetag this time (because I couldn't find it last time) ... it was £40, which was all that I had with me, and I had to get other things. We went into Little Waterstones (there's two in the city; a small one, and a larger one) to find Paper Towns by John Green, which I saw last time, but I couldn't find it. We went to Shakeaway, which is awesome, and After Eight milkshakes are delicious. I love them! So, anyway, we wandered around a bit, browsed shops, bought food. I ran into my aunt-by-marriage with her mum, and then my friend's dad/brother, and then my aunt, uncle and cousin who are staying for the weekend*.
At around one in the afternoon, we sat down to rest our feet, and so I could swap my shoes and wear the ones I had bought earlier (which are similar to these). I had connected my phone to Twitter earlier that day, knowing I'd be away from the computer for over twenty-four hours, and that it takes me forever to catch up on Twitter when I'm away for that long. Anyway, my phone vibrated for what felt like the thousandth time, so I got it out my pocket, and Jess says "Who is it this time?"
I read the tweet, and replied, "Justin."
"Bieber?"
"Yeah. He says he's got a new video out on Monday. I think it's for Somebody to Love, 'cos he was saying that he was filming for it a little while ago." A few minutes later, it went off again. Another tweet from Bieber. "Oh. Justin says it's not for Somebody to Love. He asked if we want a hint."
It was then that I noticed the girl sitting round the corner from us. She was looking at my phone longingly. It took me a while to figure it out, but I had to laugh when I did. She thought I was talking directly to Justin, like I knew him personally and he was a friend. I never mentioned Twitter, or anything that would give away that "we" meant his followers, and not Jess and I.
But still. That was fun.
And then we spent well over an hour in the large Waterstones, waiting for a window seat to be cleared in the upstairs Costa there. It was insanely busy for a long time, most of which we spent in this more cut-off section of the shop, with lots of Teaching Resources, Self-Help, and Reference books. It was in the Creative Writing section of the References section that I stumbled on The Writer's Block. The Writer's Block is this cube(literally)-shaped book, in which there are 786 ideas to help get rid of writer's block. The gist of it is that you open it to a random page, and you have to write about whatever it says, or do whatever it tells you to do. I just opened it at a random page, and it says "Describe your most intimate experience with Mother Nature."
"Spark Word: Tattoo." (that means write something inspired by that word)
"Write about your worst habit."
It's a wonderful, genius idea for a book. And it was the only one there, as well, so I snatched it just in time. I also bought the Little Oxford Dictionary of Quotations, because I love quotes, and these are fantastic.
And then, when we did finally manage to get a window table, it was so busy on the other side of the window that it was disorientating to watch. A woman came and asked if she could move one of the tables over (there were two pushed together), and she only moved it a few inches. When Jess and I made to leave, I had to squeeze between the tables. I knocked half of her tea into the saucer thing. Cringe. I apologised, and pegged it. To make matters worse, Jess won't let it drop.
Later on, we went into the smaller Waterstones again. And guess what I found. Yep, Paper Towns. It sat there, clear as day, laughing at me because I could no longer afford it. Argh DX .... And there's this anime/manga stall in the city, too, and it sells a bunch of merch. I'd only paid a little bit of attention to it before because there's Death Note stuff there, and I know Allie likes Death Note. But walking past it today, I saw VAMPIRE KNIGHT MERCH! I couldn't believe it. I blew my money on other stuff, without realising there was Vampire Knight stuff on sale. So I'm going next weekend, after Race For Life (which I'm doing with Jess and her aunt, taking Jess's mum's place because she has a bad ankle and can't do it... even though we're only walking), to get Paper Towns and the Vampire Knight stuff.
Although, since it IS half-term, I might be able to sweet-talk my mum into going with me earlier. Or I can arrange to go with Jess, again. Yeah... we could do that. But if it's with my mum, I can just bat my eyelashes and ask her to buy me stuff that I can no longer afford xD
*And I got kicked into the spare room so they had room to sleep. Hmph. They leave tomorrow, at least.
So Jess and I met up at 10:10am in the rain, caught the bus, and all that crap. Last week, I saw a hoodie in Pulp that I really wanted ("I ♥ Nerds"), so I looked at the pricetag this time (because I couldn't find it last time) ... it was £40, which was all that I had with me, and I had to get other things. We went into Little Waterstones (there's two in the city; a small one, and a larger one) to find Paper Towns by John Green, which I saw last time, but I couldn't find it. We went to Shakeaway, which is awesome, and After Eight milkshakes are delicious. I love them! So, anyway, we wandered around a bit, browsed shops, bought food. I ran into my aunt-by-marriage with her mum, and then my friend's dad/brother, and then my aunt, uncle and cousin who are staying for the weekend*.
At around one in the afternoon, we sat down to rest our feet, and so I could swap my shoes and wear the ones I had bought earlier (which are similar to these). I had connected my phone to Twitter earlier that day, knowing I'd be away from the computer for over twenty-four hours, and that it takes me forever to catch up on Twitter when I'm away for that long. Anyway, my phone vibrated for what felt like the thousandth time, so I got it out my pocket, and Jess says "Who is it this time?"
I read the tweet, and replied, "Justin."
"Bieber?"
"Yeah. He says he's got a new video out on Monday. I think it's for Somebody to Love, 'cos he was saying that he was filming for it a little while ago." A few minutes later, it went off again. Another tweet from Bieber. "Oh. Justin says it's not for Somebody to Love. He asked if we want a hint."
It was then that I noticed the girl sitting round the corner from us. She was looking at my phone longingly. It took me a while to figure it out, but I had to laugh when I did. She thought I was talking directly to Justin, like I knew him personally and he was a friend. I never mentioned Twitter, or anything that would give away that "we" meant his followers, and not Jess and I.
But still. That was fun.
And then we spent well over an hour in the large Waterstones, waiting for a window seat to be cleared in the upstairs Costa there. It was insanely busy for a long time, most of which we spent in this more cut-off section of the shop, with lots of Teaching Resources, Self-Help, and Reference books. It was in the Creative Writing section of the References section that I stumbled on The Writer's Block. The Writer's Block is this cube(literally)-shaped book, in which there are 786 ideas to help get rid of writer's block. The gist of it is that you open it to a random page, and you have to write about whatever it says, or do whatever it tells you to do. I just opened it at a random page, and it says "Describe your most intimate experience with Mother Nature."
"Spark Word: Tattoo." (that means write something inspired by that word)
"Write about your worst habit."
It's a wonderful, genius idea for a book. And it was the only one there, as well, so I snatched it just in time. I also bought the Little Oxford Dictionary of Quotations, because I love quotes, and these are fantastic.
And then, when we did finally manage to get a window table, it was so busy on the other side of the window that it was disorientating to watch. A woman came and asked if she could move one of the tables over (there were two pushed together), and she only moved it a few inches. When Jess and I made to leave, I had to squeeze between the tables. I knocked half of her tea into the saucer thing. Cringe. I apologised, and pegged it. To make matters worse, Jess won't let it drop.
Later on, we went into the smaller Waterstones again. And guess what I found. Yep, Paper Towns. It sat there, clear as day, laughing at me because I could no longer afford it. Argh DX .... And there's this anime/manga stall in the city, too, and it sells a bunch of merch. I'd only paid a little bit of attention to it before because there's Death Note stuff there, and I know Allie likes Death Note. But walking past it today, I saw VAMPIRE KNIGHT MERCH! I couldn't believe it. I blew my money on other stuff, without realising there was Vampire Knight stuff on sale. So I'm going next weekend, after Race For Life (which I'm doing with Jess and her aunt, taking Jess's mum's place because she has a bad ankle and can't do it... even though we're only walking), to get Paper Towns and the Vampire Knight stuff.
Although, since it IS half-term, I might be able to sweet-talk my mum into going with me earlier. Or I can arrange to go with Jess, again. Yeah... we could do that. But if it's with my mum, I can just bat my eyelashes and ask her to buy me stuff that I can no longer afford xD
*And I got kicked into the spare room so they had room to sleep. Hmph. They leave tomorrow, at least.
You couldn't care less, could you?
IT'S HALF TERM!! I need the break xD
So, it's been a week since I last blogged, and once again, I went to the city centre with Jess, and I stayed round hers afterwards. We watched this week's episode of Doctor Who, immediately followed by Vampires of Venice because she had Sky+'d it, and I still hadn't got round to watching it. Vampires of Venice was an alright episode, but I was a little disappointed at how they weren't even vampires. Now, I'm not a fan of vampires, but I honestly thought they would actually be vampires. But no. They're fish. Which is just ... silly. But overall, the episode was enjoyable.
I'm going to write another blog in a minute, concentrating more on our time up the city, because there are quite a few incidents I want to share with you, but I don't want everything to clash together like they normally do. So I'm spreading it out, working backwards. This is the "sleepover" part.
After watching Doctor Who, we watched Britain's Got Talent (on Sky+, because we missed it watching Doctor Who), and honestly, Jess and I are both disgusted that some of the people got through. Namely, the Irish guy with the green beard, the orange cruise entertainer, the Lady Gaga drag queen, and the rest of that WTF group. Our faces when the judges said they'd through were identical - jaws on the floor, eyes bulging, scrunched up noses. We're horrified, and seriously questioning the judges' sanity. Are you?
Although, that being said, they also put through a lot of amazing acts, like Connected, Chloe Hickinbottom, Tobias Mead, Olivia whatsherface, The Arrangement, etc., etc.
ANYWAY, after BGT, we watched the results of Eurovision, which I hold no interest in. We came last, at ten points, while Germany were on two-hundred and something. We were third from last for a while, until Ireland overtook us. Then we were the penultimate country for quite a long time ... but then someone gave Belarus twelve points, and they overtook us. And we sat there patiently in last place, waiting for some love that we never received. Go us! Heh.
Then, out of boredom, we watched Lee Evans. He's really annoying, but he can be funny at times, and he sweats like crazy. I love how he always has a towel on stage with him, to wipe away the sweat. Poor fella. We fell asleep half-way through one of his old live shows, but Jess woke up and turned it off. I was sleeping on a two-seater sofa, all scrunched up. And yet I was comfy xD
And that's about it. We couldn't do much else, because of the rain. But you couldn't care less, could you? You probably really don't care. Because this is one of the most boring blogs ever, right? I know xD
I'm just going to remove and add things onto my to-do list, rather than crossing them off, because it saves space, and it makes more sense. Here we go, not a lot of improvement:
TO-DO LIST.
-- Write up RPG rules for KWC and 'Secret Project'
-- Arrange with friend who's going to write which rules for Secret Project
-- Make blog skin.
-- Make Secret Project Header Banners
-- STAMPS! (I know what I mean. Don't ask xD)
-- Watch Death Note
-- Watch OHSHC
-- Buy VK Merch
So, it's been a week since I last blogged, and once again, I went to the city centre with Jess, and I stayed round hers afterwards. We watched this week's episode of Doctor Who, immediately followed by Vampires of Venice because she had Sky+'d it, and I still hadn't got round to watching it. Vampires of Venice was an alright episode, but I was a little disappointed at how they weren't even vampires. Now, I'm not a fan of vampires, but I honestly thought they would actually be vampires. But no. They're fish. Which is just ... silly. But overall, the episode was enjoyable.
I'm going to write another blog in a minute, concentrating more on our time up the city, because there are quite a few incidents I want to share with you, but I don't want everything to clash together like they normally do. So I'm spreading it out, working backwards. This is the "sleepover" part.
After watching Doctor Who, we watched Britain's Got Talent (on Sky+, because we missed it watching Doctor Who), and honestly, Jess and I are both disgusted that some of the people got through. Namely, the Irish guy with the green beard, the orange cruise entertainer, the Lady Gaga drag queen, and the rest of that WTF group. Our faces when the judges said they'd through were identical - jaws on the floor, eyes bulging, scrunched up noses. We're horrified, and seriously questioning the judges' sanity. Are you?
Although, that being said, they also put through a lot of amazing acts, like Connected, Chloe Hickinbottom, Tobias Mead, Olivia whatsherface, The Arrangement, etc., etc.
ANYWAY, after BGT, we watched the results of Eurovision, which I hold no interest in. We came last, at ten points, while Germany were on two-hundred and something. We were third from last for a while, until Ireland overtook us. Then we were the penultimate country for quite a long time ... but then someone gave Belarus twelve points, and they overtook us. And we sat there patiently in last place, waiting for some love that we never received. Go us! Heh.
Then, out of boredom, we watched Lee Evans. He's really annoying, but he can be funny at times, and he sweats like crazy. I love how he always has a towel on stage with him, to wipe away the sweat. Poor fella. We fell asleep half-way through one of his old live shows, but Jess woke up and turned it off. I was sleeping on a two-seater sofa, all scrunched up. And yet I was comfy xD
And that's about it. We couldn't do much else, because of the rain. But you couldn't care less, could you? You probably really don't care. Because this is one of the most boring blogs ever, right? I know xD
I'm just going to remove and add things onto my to-do list, rather than crossing them off, because it saves space, and it makes more sense. Here we go, not a lot of improvement:
TO-DO LIST.
-- Write up RPG rules for KWC and 'Secret Project'
-- Arrange with friend who's going to write which rules for Secret Project
-- Make blog skin.
-- Make Secret Project Header Banners
-- STAMPS! (I know what I mean. Don't ask xD)
-- Watch Death Note
-- Watch OHSHC
-- Buy VK Merch
Sunday, 23 May 2010
Just A Little Update
...because my past couple of blogs have been way to angsty, pour-my-heart-out kind of blogs, and I decided that maybe, just maybe, you want to hear what's going on in my life, not what I'm thinking. It'll probably turn out that you honestly don't care what's going on, but hey, it's worth a shot.
Yesterday, at 10am, I met up with Jess and we went up the city centre, where I discovered the beauty that is Shakeaways, bought three new books, and watched people from an upstairs window for over an hour. Shakeaway is a milkshake shop, but it lets you have any kind milkshake. For example, Jess and I had malteser milkshakes with extra maltesers on the top. Basically, they blend the food with the milk, and if you ask for the extra toppings, they just throw them in after blending. And they're really nice. As for books, I bought 'New Moan' (hilarious Twilight parody), 'Thirteen Reasons Why' (which Jess has taken home to read), and 'Size Matters Not' (Warwick Davis's autobiography). They were so worth the money, and the time. We literally spent over an hour in Waterstones just looking at books. And then we went back later and sat in the café above Waterstones, where we each had just one drink (me: Oasis/her: Coke), and we spent well over an hour just sitting by the window, watching the world go by, laughing at the ridiculous clothes, gushing over the awesome hair, and scrunching our noses at the girls with barely-visible shorts on. T'was fun.
We came back for 6pm, had dinner at my house, and then arranged for Jess to stay the night. We talked a lot with the rest of my family, which is a regular for me, but Jess said was nice because she never got to have conversations like that with the rest of her family. And then we fell asleep watching Labyrinth*. We woke up at 7-ish when my nan came down (we slept in the living room), and then read from around 8:30am to 1:00pm ... ish. I read two books in that time - Vampire Knight Vol. 3 and New Moan. I love it when it's just Jess and I, because we'll happily spend a day together without wanting to play silly games like 21 Dares, and we'll spend hours in the bookshops or reading, whereas not a single one of my other offline friends would do that.
But, anyway... after Jess left, I had to do homework. Which was not fun. But now I'm here, writing this blog, when I do actually have other homework to be getting on with.
I do have something else I want to discuss with you, but it's more on the OnlineFriends vs. OfflineFriends subject, and I want to spare you the angst. I'll blog again in a couple of days, if I remember. I'm not making any promises.
The To-Do List hasn't changed, except I'm not bothering to catch up on Neighbours, so I don't see the point in putting it in this blog. When it changes, I'll include it. 'Kay? Good. Bye.
Keep blogging!
*I swear, when having sleepovers, we always fall asleep before the end of the movie.
Yesterday, at 10am, I met up with Jess and we went up the city centre, where I discovered the beauty that is Shakeaways, bought three new books, and watched people from an upstairs window for over an hour. Shakeaway is a milkshake shop, but it lets you have any kind milkshake. For example, Jess and I had malteser milkshakes with extra maltesers on the top. Basically, they blend the food with the milk, and if you ask for the extra toppings, they just throw them in after blending. And they're really nice. As for books, I bought 'New Moan' (hilarious Twilight parody), 'Thirteen Reasons Why' (which Jess has taken home to read), and 'Size Matters Not' (Warwick Davis's autobiography). They were so worth the money, and the time. We literally spent over an hour in Waterstones just looking at books. And then we went back later and sat in the café above Waterstones, where we each had just one drink (me: Oasis/her: Coke), and we spent well over an hour just sitting by the window, watching the world go by, laughing at the ridiculous clothes, gushing over the awesome hair, and scrunching our noses at the girls with barely-visible shorts on. T'was fun.
We came back for 6pm, had dinner at my house, and then arranged for Jess to stay the night. We talked a lot with the rest of my family, which is a regular for me, but Jess said was nice because she never got to have conversations like that with the rest of her family. And then we fell asleep watching Labyrinth*. We woke up at 7-ish when my nan came down (we slept in the living room), and then read from around 8:30am to 1:00pm ... ish. I read two books in that time - Vampire Knight Vol. 3 and New Moan. I love it when it's just Jess and I, because we'll happily spend a day together without wanting to play silly games like 21 Dares, and we'll spend hours in the bookshops or reading, whereas not a single one of my other offline friends would do that.
But, anyway... after Jess left, I had to do homework. Which was not fun. But now I'm here, writing this blog, when I do actually have other homework to be getting on with.
I do have something else I want to discuss with you, but it's more on the OnlineFriends vs. OfflineFriends subject, and I want to spare you the angst. I'll blog again in a couple of days, if I remember. I'm not making any promises.
The To-Do List hasn't changed, except I'm not bothering to catch up on Neighbours, so I don't see the point in putting it in this blog. When it changes, I'll include it. 'Kay? Good. Bye.
Keep blogging!
*I swear, when having sleepovers, we always fall asleep before the end of the movie.
Friday, 21 May 2010
And that scares me.
Recently, I've really been doubting the reason for friendship. My friends online are great - I love them, I trust them, and I feel like I can tell them anything. And that scares me. Why? Because I don't feel that connection with my friends offline. Even my best friend, Jess, I can't tell everything to. I hate myself for it, but it's true. While I throw around personal information offline easily, I tell more secrets and rant a lot more online because I feel uncomfortable doing it offline. Even when I talk to my friends offline on the computer, I can't talk to them the way I talk to my online friends.
But that's not the point.
Jess will almost definitely be moving away (to London or Yorkshire, most likely), for reasons I'm not allowed to tell you, and I can't help but think that I'll be so alone once she's left. Yes, I have other friends, but when I think of spending time at school without Jess, I can only imagine sitting by myself in the library, reading quietly all lunch time. But I know that's not how it'll be, because I don't spend every waking moment with Jess - we spend lunch and breaks apart sometimes, and I'm always with other friends in those cases, but I just can't imagine it being that way.
And that makes me wonder ... why are my other friends so insignificant in this future fantasy of mine? Why can't I imagine myself laughing and having fun, like we usually do?
I think I know, but I'm not sure. Jess and I, we have so much in common. We both love to read, we have similar taste in books and music, we share the same views on things (i.e. make-up is pointless, most chart music is awful, stereotypes are horrid, etc.), and we talk to each other about things I wouldn't dare talk to my other friends about. We have a connection that my other friends and I don't have. They all like chart music, dress like chavs, wear make up and skirts, obsess over the opposite gender, call me weird or boring when I don't want to do what they want to do. When Jess leaves, I won't be able to talk to anyone about Cinema Bizarre or DFTBA Records. I won't be able to say what I really think about other people, or do certain things without shame. So, in these areas, I will honestly be alone. And that scares me. I spent so long before knowing Jess, being called names because of what I like, and not being able to talk about it with anyone, and then I finally found someone who I can share things with, and after just a couple of years, I'm losing her again.
I can't stand that thought.
My other friends are great, too, and I love them, but they're just too different, and they start to get annoying. One of them flirts too much and goes out of his way to annoy people; another two get fangirlishly excited over quantum physics and stuff I just don't understand; another is racist; another I've never liked and I never will - a "frenemy"; another can't even remember my own name (and the fact that's she's only been at the school a little while is no excuse - she's been here long enough!); and another has to turn everything towards relationships and can't accept it when she's wrong.
And that brings me onto my next point. Over the past week, I've steadily been growing closer to two guys in my form, Tyler and Owen. For the past two years, I paid hardly any attention to them, but recently, for some God-unknown reason, I've been talking to them more often, and I kind of consider them to be friends, now. I'm closer to Owen than I am to Tyler, I'm more comfortable with him and we talk more often, but that doesn't mean to say I consider him any more of a friend than Tyler. That friend who can't accept she's wrong is persistent on Owen and I liking each other.
It started the other day when she came back to school after being ill. Owen and I were laughing over something he'd said, and she leans over and whispers "He fancies you." Which is honestly ridiculous. Then, in Spanish today, the four of us sat in a row - Tyler, Owen, Me and Her (from right to left). Owen and I were talking about something when James - a boy in my class - turns around and says that he thinks Owen and I would make a good couple. We denied it profusely, and Ciaran - who was next to James - laughs and points out that Owen had turned red. Bear in mind, it's really hot at the moment, so Owen was already red. But anyway ... My friend decides to join in, saying that we've been "blantantly flirting" with each other for the past week, and that we so obviously fancy each other. When we don't. Because we're just friends. If we can even call each other that yet.
Besides, maybe it's just me, but I don't think that showing me pictures of the girl he fancies is "blatantly flirting". What do you think? Because personally, I don't see it.
So, to summarize, I'm getting sick of my offline friends and I wish that they were as fantastic as my online friends, because they're so much better. And I'm starting to wonder why we need friendship, if it's just going to end up in the Graveyard of Friends sooner or later. It's weird how I'm thinking this as I'm losing one friend, and making two new ones.
But even so, no one can replace Jess.
And that scares me.
But in brighter news, I've passed twenty-five books on my Book Count, I've finished Pita-Ten, and I've found HPFC. And I have the most adorable baby cousin ever.
Keep blogging!
TO-DO LIST.
-- Catch up on Neighbours
-- Watch Vampires in Venice
-- Write up RPG rules for KWC and 'Secret Forum Project'
-- Arrange with friend who's going to write which rules for Secret Forum Project
-- Finish Pita-Ten.
-- Finish Eagle Strike.
-- Make blog skin.
-- Make Secret Forum Project Header Banner
-- STAMPS! (I know what I mean. Don't ask xD)
-- Watch Death Note
-- Watch OHSHC
But that's not the point.
Jess will almost definitely be moving away (to London or Yorkshire, most likely), for reasons I'm not allowed to tell you, and I can't help but think that I'll be so alone once she's left. Yes, I have other friends, but when I think of spending time at school without Jess, I can only imagine sitting by myself in the library, reading quietly all lunch time. But I know that's not how it'll be, because I don't spend every waking moment with Jess - we spend lunch and breaks apart sometimes, and I'm always with other friends in those cases, but I just can't imagine it being that way.
And that makes me wonder ... why are my other friends so insignificant in this future fantasy of mine? Why can't I imagine myself laughing and having fun, like we usually do?
I think I know, but I'm not sure. Jess and I, we have so much in common. We both love to read, we have similar taste in books and music, we share the same views on things (i.e. make-up is pointless, most chart music is awful, stereotypes are horrid, etc.), and we talk to each other about things I wouldn't dare talk to my other friends about. We have a connection that my other friends and I don't have. They all like chart music, dress like chavs, wear make up and skirts, obsess over the opposite gender, call me weird or boring when I don't want to do what they want to do. When Jess leaves, I won't be able to talk to anyone about Cinema Bizarre or DFTBA Records. I won't be able to say what I really think about other people, or do certain things without shame. So, in these areas, I will honestly be alone. And that scares me. I spent so long before knowing Jess, being called names because of what I like, and not being able to talk about it with anyone, and then I finally found someone who I can share things with, and after just a couple of years, I'm losing her again.
I can't stand that thought.
My other friends are great, too, and I love them, but they're just too different, and they start to get annoying. One of them flirts too much and goes out of his way to annoy people; another two get fangirlishly excited over quantum physics and stuff I just don't understand; another is racist; another I've never liked and I never will - a "frenemy"; another can't even remember my own name (and the fact that's she's only been at the school a little while is no excuse - she's been here long enough!); and another has to turn everything towards relationships and can't accept it when she's wrong.
And that brings me onto my next point. Over the past week, I've steadily been growing closer to two guys in my form, Tyler and Owen. For the past two years, I paid hardly any attention to them, but recently, for some God-unknown reason, I've been talking to them more often, and I kind of consider them to be friends, now. I'm closer to Owen than I am to Tyler, I'm more comfortable with him and we talk more often, but that doesn't mean to say I consider him any more of a friend than Tyler. That friend who can't accept she's wrong is persistent on Owen and I liking each other.
It started the other day when she came back to school after being ill. Owen and I were laughing over something he'd said, and she leans over and whispers "He fancies you." Which is honestly ridiculous. Then, in Spanish today, the four of us sat in a row - Tyler, Owen, Me and Her (from right to left). Owen and I were talking about something when James - a boy in my class - turns around and says that he thinks Owen and I would make a good couple. We denied it profusely, and Ciaran - who was next to James - laughs and points out that Owen had turned red. Bear in mind, it's really hot at the moment, so Owen was already red. But anyway ... My friend decides to join in, saying that we've been "blantantly flirting" with each other for the past week, and that we so obviously fancy each other. When we don't. Because we're just friends. If we can even call each other that yet.
Besides, maybe it's just me, but I don't think that showing me pictures of the girl he fancies is "blatantly flirting". What do you think? Because personally, I don't see it.
So, to summarize, I'm getting sick of my offline friends and I wish that they were as fantastic as my online friends, because they're so much better. And I'm starting to wonder why we need friendship, if it's just going to end up in the Graveyard of Friends sooner or later. It's weird how I'm thinking this as I'm losing one friend, and making two new ones.
But even so, no one can replace Jess.
And that scares me.
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But in brighter news, I've passed twenty-five books on my Book Count, I've finished Pita-Ten, and I've found HPFC. And I have the most adorable baby cousin ever.
Keep blogging!
TO-DO LIST.
-- Catch up on Neighbours
-- Watch Vampires in Venice
-- Write up RPG rules for KWC and 'Secret Forum Project'
-- Arrange with friend who's going to write which rules for Secret Forum Project
-- Make blog skin.
-- Make Secret Forum Project Header Banner
-- STAMPS! (I know what I mean. Don't ask xD)
-- Watch Death Note
-- Watch OHSHC
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