Glee Twin Manips: The Lopez Twins 01

100th Blog Post like yeah~

So, I didn't blog yesterday. What an even better start to BEDA, eh? I'm doing really great so far. Okay, so, I woke up at 8AM because I had an appointment with my GP, then I went to bed at 3PM because I felt like crap, got up at 5PM to eat dinner, went back to bed at 6PM, and didn't wake up until lunch time today. That's why I didn't blog yesterday. As it is, I've already been back to bed since then, I'm exhausted, and I feel awful. I don't want to blog. But I'm forcing myself to type something out to save myself from having to write, like, twenty drabbles at the end of the month.

This is my 100th post, but I seriously cannot bring myself to care right now and think of something better to do. So I'm not going to do anything for my 100th. I'm just going to ... talk. In bulletpoints.

• Glee comes back on the 19th. 
• Doctor Who comes back on the 23rd!
• It's three of my friends' birthday on the 6th.
• Jess turns 14 on the 27th.
• I'm on seizure pills for my headaches
• The beta-blockers I was on weren't doing anything and the next course of action would have been anti-depressants
• But they might toy with my mood and the doctor wants to assess me for depression before putting me on anti-depressants, and if my mood changed, it'd be harder to assess me correctly.
• They're going to contact this counselling thing
• I don't want to talk to a bloody counsellor
• I want people to just leave me alone
• Ugh
• Whatever

I can't be bothered to write any more. I'm tired, I feel like crap, and I just want to curl in a hole and die. Ugh. Sorry for being a little ball of angst. I just ... yeah whatever.

Drabbles I Owe You: 1

Knight In Tattered Armour

It's the first day of April, first day of BEDA, and I have no idea what to blog about. My next blog will be my 100th and I still don't know what to do for it. This page has been open for almost two hours now and ... I just don't know what to write. So, uh, have a song recommendation. I give you Fairytale Ending by Brock Baker.

You are the damsel in distress
And I am nothing less
Than your knight in tattered armour
So take my hand
And we will run through the open fields 

I've had the song on a loop for days. Brock Baker has the voice of an angel and the song is so, so beautiful. I absolutely adore it and I think you might like it. It's genuinely amazing.

Sorry that this is such a sucky start to BEDA, I'm just really exhausted and out of ideas and I have nothing to say. I'll try to change that as the month goes on, but be warned, song recommendations will be my go-to idea when I'm at a loss for words. What an awesome way to start the month, right? [/sarcasm]

B E D A

April is almost upon us and BEDA is only just out of our reach. Just like last year, I will be doing BEDA. For those of you who are unaware, BEDA stands for Blog Every Day in April, in which thousands of bloggers dedicate their time into writing at least one blog post a day for the thirty days that make up April. There's another variation of this called VEDA, Vlog Every Day in April, in which vloggers make and upload a video every day.

I can't promise I'll remember to blog every day. I might get tired and decide to turn in early without blogging, or maybe my head will be particularly nasty and it hurts too much to use the laptop, or maybe I'll just be my idiotic self and let it slip my mind. However, I vow to attempt to blog every day in April, and for every single day I may or may not miss, I will write a drabble and post it in May. That's a promise.

Now, onto my day. I had a blood test this morning and the nurse missed the vein at first so I have two puncture holes in the crook of my elbow that look like I've been bitten by a snake. I'm already sporting a lovely bruise, too. Have I ever mentioned that I'm aichmophobic? Yes, I have. I was terrified. My results should be here within a day or two.

The rest of my day has been rather dull, except for maybe the last couple of hours. I sent Dominic Barnes, a Warbler on Glee and a really amazing person, a message. He replied. I fangirled. Katie and I were unable to form coherent sentences. The excitement slowly decreased. Here I am.

I got a letter in the post with my exam dates. I have three GCSEs at the beginning of May, and one at the beginning of June. Do you have any idea how close that is? My first exam is in, like, forty days. I've missed so much school and I can never concentrate and I have forty days for my headache to decrease enough that I concentrate so I can study and catch up and have a chance at passing. It'll be hopeless. I'll fail. I'll probably have a breakdown in the examination hall. I'm screwed.

However, I have a meeting tomorrow with my form teacher and head of year about adjusting my timetable and twisting things up to make it easier for me to cope with school. I'm going in at 9AM with my mum and we're going to discuss it. So that should be ... productive.

I'll see you guys later, I guess.

Seeing Double and Drawing Closer

On Tumblr, it's become a sort of craze to make photomanipulations of the characters from Glee to make it seem as though they have twins. I jumped on the bandwagon a few days ago. It's really fun and a welcome distraction from everything that's going on, and I've made nine so far. They're not completely terrible. Four of them have been posted on Tumblr, along with little drabbles, but Tumblr is currently messing up and I only made the other five recently so I haven't had the chance to upload them. I thought I could post them here; I'm going to post one manip a day, along with the accompanying drabble, and it'd be awesome if you could give your feedback.

In other news, I'm ridiculously close to my 100th post (this is my 97th!) and I want to do something special when I reach that milestone. I was thinking that maybe you could send in questions (about my blog, my life, my fandoms, my writing, my graphics) for me to answer, and I'd put them all into one post. I'd probably end up asking people on other sites (tumblr, deviantART, etc.) as well, since I'm pretty sure Megha's the only one of my followers who still reads this blog. Hey, it's worth a shot, though, right? If you have any better suggestions on what I could do for my 100th post, your input would be greatly appreciated.

Another thing I've been thinking about lately is what I use this blog for. This blog is still primarily somewhat of a journal, a place where I write about my thoughts and my theories while keeping you updated on my life at the same time. However, would you mind if I posted more creative things more often? Drabbles, snippets of longer pieces of writing, icons, banners (both old and new). I've shared my writing on here a few times before, and same goes with the banners, but this blog was never really meant for that. However, I think it'd be nice if I could share those things with you more often.

I was also thinking, maybe, of recommending songs and videos that I really like and/or touch me somehow. Lately, I've found a lot of songs that I've really fallen in love with and while my normal outlet for things like that would be tumblr, tumblr almost always already knows about these songs. On tumblr, posts get lost behind posts, and within minutes, my tiny recommendation will mean nothing. This site works differently, however, and my recommendations won't get buried so quickly. I think it would be really nice. Let me know if you'd be into that kind of thing. It's just an idea at this point, I still may not go through with it, but I'd like to.

Let's kick it off with a song to end the post, shall we? I want to show you Glee's cover of Lady Antebellum's Need You Now, sung by Lea Michele and Mark Salling.

 Another shot of whiskey

Can't stop looking at the door

Wishing you'd come sweeping in

The way you did before

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind

For me, it happens all the time

I've had it on repeat for the majority of the day and I think it's a really wonderful song. When I first heard it, I admit, I didn't think much of it. I didn't dislike it necessarily but it didn't do anything for me. I wasn't in love with it. I can't remember when, but I got it stuck in my head a while ago. When you get songs stuck in your head, it usually ends up frustrating you, right? In this case, it's made me fall head over heels. I haven't been able to stop listening to it. Lea and Mark's voices fit together so beautifully and I really hope we get more duets from them in future episodes of Glee.